I'm not sure if I'm strong enough for this, and I'm not sure how to do it, but I really feel like I need a big change in my life. Not like a new hair cut or pilates. Something to quell my urge to pack all of my necessities and leave this town.

I'm not the kind of person to live by my impulses. Which is why I started making a list in my head of everything I would need to have at hand and what sort of preparations I would have to make to have all of that. I'm reinforcing my impulse so that when it comes back greater and more persistent, I'll be a little more responsible and prepared to give in to it.