I've been playing Arcade Fire's first EP on repeat at work this week.  It has such a dream like, magical quality to it.  Great music to de-stress with or to just keep yourself calm as situations become more stressful.

It's fitting, I kinda feel like I'm living in a dream state.  For me, I guess I dream a lot about love.  About having a connection with someone.  Sometimes it's an adventure.  Sometime it's just me fighting for someone else.  But that feeling of giddiness, like the butterflies before a first date and the excitement when you're first talking and flirting and the connection is made, that feeling is transferable for me. Not from person to person, nothing like that.  More like from dreaming in your sleep to making your dreams come true.

I guess that could be confusing.  It's a feeling and they don't always follow logic.

I just feel like I've woken up and that giddiness hasn't gone away.  I check my email and there's progress on the next step and I squeal before I even read it. And then I start to prepare my response and it's like that fear of rejection, fear that you won't be heard, but it's also not a real fear.  It's something keeping me in check from getting wishy washy and not staying logical and practical.

Then at the same time it is a dream. An American dream.  A dream for grown-ups and families and independent ladies and determined men.

You wanna be set apart?
Burn all of your art
repair the wasteful part.

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