You didn't think it would be you. We all know it can happen to anybody, old or young. Coworkers, classmates, distant aunts, famous celebrities, the poor and the rich. Some even die. Many do, actually. Privately or in small groups or on purpose to escape. The pain and the stress and that feeling of being so, so tired.
But your journey has just started. It's isolated and the pain is faint. Well, the irritation from this particular strand at least. It's early and there is so much to do. So many procedures and medications and prayer circles, but not for you. This journey may have just begun but it is a chapter towards the end of your book and you don't particularly care if it writes your final chapter. I do.
I'm angry, you're damn right. My anger isn't really at fate or life or God, though. My anger is with you. I'm not the only one who needs you. I'm not the one who would fall apart without you right now. One can only stand their ground on a fault line for so long.
I love you so much. I want to paw at you with my voice through the phone. Please fight. Please be strong. Please be here now.
Saturday, June 17, 2017
posted by Songs of Love at 12:17 AM
Friday, June 16, 2017
There is good coming our way. It's on the horizon. It's so close. It's not just for me, this good, we've all been waiting for it. Praying for it. Paying for it.
It's tomorrow. It's Monday. Next week. All week. All month. It's so close.
I won't close my eyes. I won't fall asleep. I need the good that's coming. I need it now. I'm afraid so I won't sleep, won't blink. I've been holding my breathe for a while now too, but it's okay, 'cause I'm awake. I'm awake and I'm waiting.
It's so close. So don't leave me with memories of you. Don't leave me. Stay.
Stay for the good.
It's tomorrow. It's Monday. Next week. All week. All month. It's so close.
I won't close my eyes. I won't fall asleep. I need the good that's coming. I need it now. I'm afraid so I won't sleep, won't blink. I've been holding my breathe for a while now too, but it's okay, 'cause I'm awake. I'm awake and I'm waiting.
It's so close. So don't leave me with memories of you. Don't leave me. Stay.
Stay for the good.
Labels: fear, love, memories of you, stay for the good
Tuesday, June 6, 2017
I just got a call from the University of Georgia Master Gardener Extension program to survey my thoughts on their seed library at Hickory Flat. They obviously haven't seen my instagram. Books and gardening, cats and dogs, books and gardening, and oh yeah, a cute little baby!
The seed library is very exciting though and more people should try it! They have this cute antique looking cabinet and trays of seeds that you can take for free! It is a little overwhelming because you have to take full packets and at the end of your harvest you are expected to return a full packet of seeds. It's not just vegetable and herb seeds either, there are also flower seeds from several gardens!
It is a great way to encourage the long time tradition of gardening and farming in this area and to acquire seeds that will grow well in these conditions. I am a huge fan! I've had a huge pepper harvest this summer and, although my plants did not come from those seeds, I'm going to see if I can share them in the library as well.
UGA also has some master gardener classes they offer through the library. I've had to miss a few great ones due to work, but I am so excited to start going. They have a class in September on saving seeds. They have a class tomorrow out in Jasper called Build a Better Hive.
I'm not sure why it took me so long to realize I love gardening, all of it - planting and seeding and attracting bees and fresh vegetables. I'm even interested in bees more. Like I want to build a little build house out of a log for some Mason Bees. I want to start small, but I'm so intrigued. There's this one honey that has a lavender taste to it because the bees are next to a large field of lavender. That's so cool! I want to try that. I want to see.
Anyway, here is an article from when the seed library started that goes into more detail:
https://blog.extension.uga.edu/cherokee/2017/02/checking-in-on-the-seed-library/
The seed library is very exciting though and more people should try it! They have this cute antique looking cabinet and trays of seeds that you can take for free! It is a little overwhelming because you have to take full packets and at the end of your harvest you are expected to return a full packet of seeds. It's not just vegetable and herb seeds either, there are also flower seeds from several gardens!
It is a great way to encourage the long time tradition of gardening and farming in this area and to acquire seeds that will grow well in these conditions. I am a huge fan! I've had a huge pepper harvest this summer and, although my plants did not come from those seeds, I'm going to see if I can share them in the library as well.
UGA also has some master gardener classes they offer through the library. I've had to miss a few great ones due to work, but I am so excited to start going. They have a class in September on saving seeds. They have a class tomorrow out in Jasper called Build a Better Hive.
I'm not sure why it took me so long to realize I love gardening, all of it - planting and seeding and attracting bees and fresh vegetables. I'm even interested in bees more. Like I want to build a little build house out of a log for some Mason Bees. I want to start small, but I'm so intrigued. There's this one honey that has a lavender taste to it because the bees are next to a large field of lavender. That's so cool! I want to try that. I want to see.
Anyway, here is an article from when the seed library started that goes into more detail:
https://blog.extension.uga.edu/cherokee/2017/02/checking-in-on-the-seed-library/
Labels: bees, building bee hives, gardening, instagram, listening to The Beatles channel on satellite radio, mason bees, Master Gardeners, seed library, seeds, UGA
Saturday, June 3, 2017
I haven't had much time to write lately. I have been so busy trying to schedule things around work and reading when I'm not at work or on break or kind of even in the car. They moved my location at work because of the renovations and now I am highly visible all the time so I can't check my email, schedule appointments, etc.
I'm pushing really hard to reach my reading goal for the year and I've read so many great books this year. Since I hate the radio, can't stand the ads on Spotify/Pandora, and have overplayed my in car mixes, I have been listening to books on tape in the car! So far it hasn't distracted me while driving. I've actually had to replay certain parts when the road needed all of my attention. I'm not always a huge fan of the narrators, especially when they try to change their voice when speaking for different characters because they usually just do something annoying with their voice.
I'm holding back because I'm on the verge of something amazing. I remember this feeling from a few years ago. I just want to be certain.
I'm pushing really hard to reach my reading goal for the year and I've read so many great books this year. Since I hate the radio, can't stand the ads on Spotify/Pandora, and have overplayed my in car mixes, I have been listening to books on tape in the car! So far it hasn't distracted me while driving. I've actually had to replay certain parts when the road needed all of my attention. I'm not always a huge fan of the narrators, especially when they try to change their voice when speaking for different characters because they usually just do something annoying with their voice.
I'm holding back because I'm on the verge of something amazing. I remember this feeling from a few years ago. I just want to be certain.
Labels: books on tape, busy, reading, work