In today's Rate The Pain scale I am a 9.5 in heartbreak, misery, and jealousy.
I had a really great weekend, a 2 or 3, but that was only temporary. Without any warning my heart turned back and I just absolutely miss him. My therapy appointment isn't until Thursday.

All the good advice my friends gave me just gets swept away when I miss him this much. There's so much I miss about him and so many good memories I can't get out of my head. Missing him this much makes me physically nauseous. And there goes my appetite again.