I started this other post to try and capture how I feel, but it was so messy. Looking at it all there, I don’t want to share that here for all. I need someone to talk to. Someone who knew me before and liked me then. In the process of growing up I think I lost some of my better qualities. How do you get the good parts back? I want to talk about all that and go through photos & scrapbooks & keepsakes & get all these people back in my life & not live all across the world instead.

Also, I’m having the surgery. Next week. I don’t want to talk to people about it, but I still feel weird about it so I’ve been closed off.

Labels: all the feelings, nostalgia, surgery, take me back to the start