I don't get how I keep it together at work.  I think maybe it's the dead look I get that people confuse for stress and being tired.

The rain gave me a migraine and left me unable to take Tess to the dog park.  I went out for a strangely early dinner today and I felt so distanced from everyone and everything.  I can't make up my mind until I decide to do something and realize it's not what I want at all. I think I've been here too long and it's time to transition in to the next phase.

Speaking of transitions, I just realized that it is almost one of my sibling's birthday.  I read Cosmo's article about the lead singer of Against Me! and her journey as a transgendered person and I still can't believe this is an article that I can find so much familiarity in.  It's all so weird, but none of that is even what's really bothering me.

I feel backed in a corner.  This is how I should react.  This is something I should take on.  Even if it's in the opposite direction of where I'm heading.  It's everywhere - work, friendships, family, my friend's upcoming wedding, when I should move, when I should take Tess home, when a friendship is over.

I wish it would stop raining and the pollen would go away and I could just twirl around and around and around in the sun until I get too dizzy and need to lay down.

Labels: Against Me!, dogs, migraine, raining, Tess, transgender, transitions, We used to be friends.

Fitz is the very best cat that ever lived.  He is, simply said, the fucking best.  The End.

I spent a few hours with Tess today and she is such a total sweetheart.  And wonderful with other animals.  And so smart but not in the getting-in-trouble kind of way.  I want so badly to introduce the two and give Fitz the gift of a permanent housemate.  Someone to play with and nap with during the day while I'm at work.  Someone who is not Roman.

Labels: cats, dogs, Fitz, Tess

This is what you need to know if you have any recent questions about me:

1.  I keep losing my phone charger and my phone is constantly dying.
2.  I have been forgetting a lot of things lately, including calling people back, texting responses, and responding to anything on facebook.
3.  I'm in the process of adopting an Aussie mix named Tess.  I've been spending a lot of time at different parks with her so if you want to hang out after 6 on a weekday and you have a dog, come meet us!  Pickneyville is right next to my office.
4. I'm moving out of my sister's.  She's been great, but it's too far and I hate how much time I spend in the car.
5. I was looking at living alone but I may have found 2 roommates who are totally cool with Fitz & Tess.
6.  My dear June is not doing so hot.  If my phone isn't dead, chances are I'm having car problems instead.
7.  I have been watching The Bible and Vikings on the History Channel every Sunday and Sail keeps getting stuck in my head.
8.  I got a promotion at work, but not the pay yet.  Not cool.  My new title is Events Coordinator.  Way cool.
9. If we haven't seen each other in a long time, chances are I want to hang out but have been too stressed/forgetful to reach out.

ALSO IN ONE WEEK I'LL BE IN HAWAII!

Labels: car trouble, dog adoption, dogs, major life events, moving, Pickneyville, promotion, stress, Tess, Vikings, work